Saturday, August 22, 2009

Ramadhan datang lagi....

Ya Allah, aku mensyukuri nikmat Mu di atas jemputan Mu kali ini bertemu dengan bulan khusus untuk manusia. Dengan limpahan kasih sayang Mu dengan pahala yang tiada tandingnya, Alhamdulillah

Seperti tahun tahun yang lalu, di awal Ramadhan memang terpahat segala macam niat dan azam untuk menjadikan Ramadhan ini yang terbaik namun segala galanya hilang di pertengahan. MAcam itu lah selalunnya.

Hangat hangat tahi ayam.

Sedangkan iblis syaitan telahpun diikat. Tengok tu betapa kasih dan sayangnya Allah kepada manusia tidak lain dan tidak bukan semata mata ingin membenarkan kita untuk beribadat sebanyak mana pun tanpa ada halangan dan bisikan iblis dan syaitan. Tak nak buat juga. Malas juga nak solat. Puasapun sekadar menahan lapar dan dahaga.

Nafsu makan macam mana? Mata, telinga dan yang sukar dikawal dan dijaga iaitu hati. Hati tetap nak buruk sangka. Perasaan marah masih tak berbendung. Masyaallah Razlan, ini peluang mu sekali lagi. Tahun depan belum tentu.

Apapun niat dan azam tetap dipasang macam biasa. Insyaallah dengan izinNya. Akan ku cuba buat acapkalinya untuk memperbaiki. Berharap sangat solat wajib tiada yang tertinggal dan tiada yang terlewat. Solat sunnat Tarawikh agar dapat berjemaah di setiap malam. Bacaan Al Quran dan zikir zikir serta solat sunat yang lainnya. Harap dapat dilakukan bukan sahaja secara fizikal dan praktikal tapi seikhlasnya hati agar terkesan dan diterima Yang Maha Esa.

Di bulan Ramadhan bulan untuk kita mengenal diri kita. Siapa kita yang sebenarnya. Kalau di bulan bulan biasa kita beralasan tidak tertahan dan sering tewas dengan bisikan iblis syaitan namun kalau di bulan Ramadhan kita masih lagi tidak berdisiplin dan beretika, masih leka, lalai dan alpa. Hah itu lah Razlan, 11 bulan yang lain nya telah dipengaruhi oleh nafsu yang tidak pernah puas melakukan maksiat yang berbagai tanpa rasa malu dan bersalah. Apakah aku perlu beralasan yang aku dipengaruhi iblis syaitan atau aku sendiri yang menyenangi diriku membuat dosa dan maksiat tanpa godaan iblis dan syaitan.

Razlan, ingatlah kamu, Dunia ini tipuan belaka dan bersifat sementara.

Ingatlah............. Pilihlah........

samada.......

Dosa atau Pahala

Syurga atau Neraka

Mata Allah atau mata manusia





Thursday, August 20, 2009

What is my mood today

I started very early in the morning as quite ok but worried and wonder.

After i had a couple of chat with a friend then i feel like losing.

I hate losing i even hate getting hurt and being hurt even more.

I am ruffled............

Not feeling quite well to start every thing for the day. Kind of boring as well.

But, should i let this happen to me OR

should i enjoy and appreciate every single moment of my life.

Today may be bad and tommorow may be even worth. You dont know. Very unlucky you if you dont appreciate todays.

Be positive.

Life is all about choices.

Be good or be bad

Be happy or be sad

Be motivating or be low self estem

Be strong or be weak

Dont victimise yourself with those negative attitudes, instead replace it with good characters.

It is easier said and done.

Still.....

the choice is yours








Sahabat sahabat sahabat

Besides your family members i guess everyone needs friend. To have a friend that can share the sadness and happiness with ypu. Close friends are even better, This kind of people are always with you whenever you need them. Very understanding, respect you, know almost everything about you. Your likes and dislikes. I have quite a number persons that i can called as close friends.



But lately, i just realised and i just cant remember when is the last time someone treated me as closed friend. May be because of responsibilities towards their own families, jobs, surroundings or may be they have found better person as closed friend. Then good luck.



Me, i guess i just have freinds. Normal friends. Or chatters. Thats all. I think i am still lucky i still have freinds and chatters. I can have fun with them. Jokes, laugh, etc etc



My sadness, my problems, my heartaches......arghhhh.....pretty bad pretty lonely.









Razlan, be strong okay

Yesterday one of the owner called and cancelled the deal. Booking already paid. Bukan rezeki namanya tu. Razlan, kau harus redho and tabah. Ada hikmahnya. Mungkin bukan untuk kebaikkan kamu tapi orang lain lebih memerlukan. I guess i understand. The owner needs that most.



Itulah namanya rezeki. Kita hanya boleh merancang Allah lah yang akan menentukan.



Makanan di tangan belum tentu sempat disuap tanpa izinNya.



Makanan yang disuap belum tentu masuk ke kerongkong. Mungkin kurang enak lalu diluahkan kembali.



Begitu juga makanan yang telah ditelan, belum tentu diterima perut. Tiba tiba loya. Muntah. Keluar semula makanan tadi.



Itulah kuasa Allah. Dia Yang Maha Kuasa. Dia yang menghendakki dan tidak menghendakki.



Razlan, kau harus bersyukur kerana banyak lagi nikmat yg diberi. Masih ada nyawa, boleh bernafas, melihat, mendengar dan berbagai lagi. Tidak semestinya nikmat itu dalam bentuk wang ringgit.



Namun, saat dan ketika ini yang aku inginkan hanyalah duit. Bagi aku itulah yang paling penting buat aku. Aku tidak tamak tapi itulah hakikatnya. Wang bukan segala galanya tetapi wang paling aku perlukan sekarang.



Ya Allah, aku tahu Kau ada alasan untuk menarik penjualan itu dari aku. Sebagai manusia aku tidak lari dari rasa kecewa namun aku meminta kepada Mu Allah Yang Maka Kuasa Maha Mendengar Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang zahirkan la rasa gembira, rasa ceria, ketabahan dan kesabaran untuk aku terus melalui liku liku kehidupan ku yang amat payah ini.



Ya Allah, sekiranya rezeki ku ada di langit, maka Engkau turunkanlah. Jika dibumi Engkau keluarkanlah. Jika payah Engkau permudahkanlah. Jika lambat Engkau percepatkanlah. Jika haram Engkau sucikan lah. Amin

Monday, August 17, 2009

Creating Good Luck

My fren Tilawah examination is just around the corner and i wished him Good luck

Speaking about good luck, i remember see something quite interesting and it says


" Good luck is the result of good planning "


For me, it makes sense. No matter of how many wishes of Good Luck that you have received and if you yourself do not have proper plan or good preparation, there will no luck for you. Thus, we can create Good Luck. If you wanna have a good luck in your life, examination, relationship, job, interview etc etc., initiate and create it wonderfully with excellent preparation, extra efforts, smart actionplan and finally Insyaallah you deserve a " Good Luck".

Friday, August 14, 2009

11 Januari

Another good song from Gigi

11 Januari

Sebelas Januari Bertemu
Menjalani Kisah Cinta Ini
Naluri Berkata Engkaulah Milikku
Bahagia Selalu Dimiliki
Bertahun Menjalani Bersamamu
Kunyatakan bahwa Engkaulah jiwaku
Akulah Penjagamu
Akulah Pelindungmu
Akulah Pendampingmu
Di setiap langkah-langkahmu
Pernahku Menyakiti Hatimu
Pernah kau melupakan janji ini
Semua Karena kita ini manusia
Akulah Penjagamu
Akulah Pelindungmu
Akulah Pendampingmu
Di setiap langkah-langkahmu
Chorus:
Kau bawa diriku
Kedalam hidupmu
Kau basuh diriku
Dengan rasa sayang
Senyummu juga sedihmu
adalah Hidupku
Kau sentuh cintaku dengan lembut
Dengan sejuta warna



Pray from a freind

Recently one of my friends wrote this

" is thankful to Allah for everything. Wish he could do everything by his own and not to burden people around him. Regardless. Ya Allah, he need your guide and helps to go through all this. Only God knows his feeling and though all this while"

Beautiful and has a very personal touch.

A pray from a guy. Good attitude. Great personality. Very good at heart.

Yes Ya Allah. I need now exactly what is in the pray. Not more not less. All are there what i need.

Bedtime story: Pada suatu hari - my son elder son;s version

This is what i like to do before going to sleep.

Telling simple stories to my elder son. He likes it very much and one day i feel like the time has come for him to tell his own story. Normally my bedtime stories are all about things that he loves like animals, vehicles and so on.

And this is his very 1st bedtime story

My son: Pada suatu hari ada seekor semut. Semut tu kan. Dia kan gigit orang utan.

Me: iyer.? dia gigit orang utan kat mana?

My son: kat utan la

Me: ooooo, kat utan. ermm lepas tu?

My son: Lepas tu semut tu dia masuk bilik air. Dia mandi. Sejukkkkkk

Hahahahahahahahahahaha

Well done my son. I like it very much. Me, always smile when my brain replay this story

Why YOU.1st

It is always about you. Who? You....your ownself

Ourself is the most important one in life. Reward yourself 1st before you reward others. You must be fit and healthy 1st before you can take care of others. You must be happy 1st before you can make others happy as well. Love yourself 1st before you can give your love to others

It is good feelings when you can contribute to peoples life whenever they are in needs and it is amazing when you can do it when you have accomplished things you need and deserve in life.

Just imagine how can you take care of your family members if you yourself is sick. Body weak, bedridden or something. Instead, they are the one who have to take care of you. Pity them

THus, you cant make them happy right?

So, it is all about yourself. Be greedy sometime. Give priority to yourself. Do things that can make you a better person. Soon this better person will be the one who are responsible for everyone surrounds them, make everyone happy, make everyone feel important. People will like, love and respect you at the end of the day.

What i feel like........now

" peluklah diriku dan jangan kau lepas"

this is what i really need right now. but who wanna hug me? you? yeah it must be you. Who is the who? I knoe and God also know. You too know as well

when you are in a mess hugging from someone you like or love can do great magic but hahaha my time is not here yet so i guess i miss the hug.

feeling funny sometime as to why you need someonelse to do the great magic to you

i just need the someonelse right now

but i knoe you have reason not to do so

Thursday, August 13, 2009

I am in the mess.....still

Rasa lega bila dah luahkan apa yang terpendam melalui blog ini.

Dan rasa lebih lega apabila luahan dihantar pada seorang rakan.

Dan rasa lega lebih lagi apabila rakan itu merasa apa yang saya rasa.

Hilang rasanya bebanan dibahu dan lapang rasanya dada yang sebelum ini dirasakan sempit.

Alhamdulillah, Tuhan Yang Maha Esa melahirkan rasa lega dan lapang itu walaupun masalah belum selesai. Rasa malupun ada kerana masalah itu mungkin tidak seberat mana tetapi hari hari yang lalu dirasakan tidak terbawa dek badan. Ah, kenapa aku begitu lemah untuk mengawal emosi akan masalah masalah sebegini.

Perasaan kusut itu sebenarnya masih ada walaupun rasa lega dan lapang menjelma sebagai penawar perasaan yang tidak terkawal. Buktinya, hari ini saja dah beberapa kali keluar masuk rumah kerana barang barang yang tertinggal.

Mula mula handphone. Bila keluar pintu teringat pula tak pakai talipinggang. Masuk balik. Sebaik sahaja masuk ke kereta, kunci kereta pula tidak dibawa. Arhhh...

Start enjin kereta nampak pula minyak dah habis sedangkan semalam rasanya baru saja beli minyak di Petronas RM30. Yang peliknya kenapa minyak masih kosong. Samada selepas bayar terus keluar tanpa mengisi minyak atas memang isi. Tetapi kalau isi di mana pulak perginya minyak. RM30 hilang begitu saja. DAh lah duit di poket makin kurang. Tak pasal pasal kena duit lagi untuk beli minyak.

Dari Cheras ke Sg Buloh 2 kali tersalah masuk jalan walaupun pada awalnya telah disusun perjalanan. Fikiran memang melayang entah ke mana mana. Beginilah agaknya kalau kita tertekan. Bebanan yang tidak tertangggung. Kusut masai fikiran.

Tuhan sahaja tempat aku mengadu. Harap didengarNYa dan diberikan kekuatan untuk teruskan hidup ini disamping memberikan petunjuk dan jalan untuk mebuang kekusutan ini jauh jauh.

Ya Allah , terima kasih kerana masih memanjangkan nyawaku untuk terus hidup untuk terus mengharungi hidup ini untuk terus mengabdikan diri kepada Mu.

Terima kasih

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

What is your mood today? Lets share

What is yours?

Me? Let me think.....ermmm i think it is a Gucci mood

Ops.....no......no....no....Can not be. My ‘fren’ used to have this mood.

How can i get Gucci mood? I dont even have one....hahahahaha....

me laughingWhat? What i have just said? Have i just said that i was laughing? Yeah. I just said that i I was laughing. Laughter is the best medicine. Thanks God. Laughter can make you feel good. Thanks God for choosing me to feel good. It could not be any better right? Alhamdulillah.

A ha..Obviously my mood today is writting. Suddenly i feel like writing. Yeah..writing. But writing about what? Nothing in particular.. May be i should listen to my heart. A second please.

Knock knock knock "anybody home? huhu

I like one song and It says

“ walau dunia tak seindah syurga”“tapi cinta lengkapi kita”

Very nice lyrics

WOW

Luv.....Luv....Luv

Who on earth does not need luv? Tell me...Who? You?

You dont need luv? Dont scare me okay.

Even animals need luv. Dont ask me how i knoe. I am watching Animal Planet you knoe.Hahahahaha. I am laughing again. One more medicine for me. May be i can put it as " laughter is the best therapy " instead. Alhamdulillah

Everybody needs love. Love from God. From family. Your parents, your siblings, your relatives, your friends, your scandals.

I beg your pardon!!! .Your scandals?? Owh no no no. Not this one. Dont play with fire. It is still love but this can danger you. What the heck am i talking about this??? Arghhhhh

Love can make you happy and love can danger you also can make you feel sad

Dont worry

Life is a choice

Choose wisely

Life is sometime cruel to you. But may be it is because of you. Your wrong doings for instance.Dont blame others and dont always keep on blaming yourself too.You may secretly killing yourself.

But still, you have loves from your families or from someone close to you or from someone you feel close to you.

Me, smilling......

Anyway love that makes you going. Loves can make you forget about your problems, your sadness, your loneliness, your heartaches, your bad days etc etc etc

I had enough love i think. Thanks God. Alhamdulillah. But lately i feel like i need more.

I am not greedy i guess. Dont blame me. I just feel it okay.

And i wouldnt blame myself for this.Will never be. I dont want to consciously kill myself.... hahahahaha and It is amazing when.........

i feel like giving it too........

Love is perfect when it is giving and receiving.

The best love is to Allah and from Allah. Remember i said just a couple of seconds earlier. Love is perfect when it is giving and receiving.

Love come from Allah through your heart to give to someone He choose NOT you choose.